For the last two weeks, I’ve been doing absolutely nothing, and it’s been everything I thought it could be.
Actually, that’s not true. I’ve been doing tons of things, it’s just that none of them were work. Most of them were watching movies and playing games. Some of them were sitting around with friends. I don’t have to go back to work until Monday, but I’m already feeling that soul-crushing anxiety that always comes after a long vacation. I don’t want to go back. It’s not that I don’t like my job, it’s just that I want to keep doing nothing forever.
Which is probably also not true. A few years ago, I was unemployed for six months or so. I sat around and did nothing all the time, and it sucked. There’s only so much nothing you can do before it gets monotonous. Also, without a reason to wake up during the day, I tend to sleep all day and do nothing all night, which wreaks havoc on my internal clock.
So I don’t want to work forever and I don’t want to do nothing forever. What do I want to do?
Beats me. Happy New Year.